have you ever felt like this?

have you ever felt like no one cares about you?
have you ever felt like you have no friends & no one to trust?
have you ever felt like everything is so hard, so tough & life is no longer worth living?

I have.

and you know wat, it doesnt feel good to feel this way. it feels like im lost in the middle of nowhere, on the edge of breaking down but no one's there to save me. everything feels so hard when it comes to 'me'.
ok im just gonna write the lyrics of 'Welcome To My Life by Simple Plan' coz i can sooo relate to that song right now.

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong,
and no one understands you?

Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud,
and no one hears you screaming?

Now you don't know what it's like,
with nothing feels alright,
you don't know what it's like
to be like me

To be hurt, to feel lost, to be left out in the dark
To be kicked, when you're down, to feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down, but no one's there to save you
now you don't know what it's like,
welcome to my life

im tired, sad & feeling pretty damned screwed.
so im gonna stop this blog.
fml & gnite.

Fanta Blueberry

I Love It

it's officially my fav soft drink in the whole wide world (:

Wednesday, 24th of June 2009

Fucking saddest day of my life.

i know it was abit over 2 weeks ago, but to be honest, im just not over it yet. (and i havnt been blogging since then)

my last day at deakin;

i couldnt believe it was over. done. zipowww. i cried so much that my eyes were like swollen the next day. i love you guys so much, deakinn girls & guys. you guys mean the world to me, and im not joking. if i was old enough to propose, i'd propose each one of you-including the girls- and i'd do watever it takes to keep you guys happy. i just love you's so much ='(

this is gonna sound so corny but watever, it's how i feel.

you guys are the best things thatd ever happened to me. all of my life i've been moving to one city to another, but wen i moved to australia, evrything seemed so special (not in a retarded way of course) and unforgettable. each moment was always something to remember, none of them werent. especially high skool. alfred deakin high skool. yes that skool is weird, but that's wat makes it such an incredible skool. i found all of these retards that i love so much, they're veryy...veryvery awesome. (sorry i couldnt find a better word, well maybe its becoz its impossible to word how awesome they are). and now its all over for me =( the fun, the excitement, the happiness... aaahhh no =(

i hope i will never ever ever loose you guys, ever, over anything. i deffs wont forget all of you's, wat about you guys? keep in contact please. if you dont have my indo number, go to my facebook notes, i put it there. and text me, call me, visit me, give me a lil giggle so then i know you're doing good.

dont ever let me out of you's lives, coz im keeping all of you's in mine.

i love you. you're all fucking awesome, and these are just some. <3