goodbye :(

im so sorry blogspot :(
i've moved on from you, im sorry but i find tumblr more attractive :D

dwismartia.tumblr.com

xx d.

miss me?

seriously, havnt touched this thing for sooo effing longg!!! im sorry!! :( (yea, like, anyone totally reads my blog :p)

okay first of all lemme refresssshhh some of the stuff thats been goin on. i dont actually remember wat my last blog was, the one before this, coz wen i try to "view blog", friggin flock brought me into this "address not found" page. like, wtf?! dont tell me that my blog has gone missing?!?!?!!!!!!!! or gone for good???????? NO PLEASE.

wait im gonna try one more time, so then i can post a blog that actually makes sense.

d.

bonjourrrrrr

goood mornin :)

im in tech..again.
last time i posted a blog was likeeeeee 4 weeks ago or somtin wowwowwowwow

anyways my holiday was great :):) i went to lombok and THE BEACHES WERE EFFING AWESOME! i went snorkling too XD it was so koooooooooool.
i cant b bothred to write much at the moment but I'M.SO.HAPPY. this week had been the happiest week of my life, like honestly.

i gotta tell you a secret but you CANT TELL ANYONE!!!!!!!!!!!!
.......................................................................i like this guyyyyyy...............................................................................................but im not gonna say the name, of course..............

and he added my facebook and followed my twitter and added my msn :)

♥♥♥ i think i'm catching the lovebug again ♥♥♥

in the middle of tech exam..

HAYHAY!
havnt been on for agessshhhh.

i love technology class. i used to hate it so much coz i didnt understand a thing that was being taught but now I UNDERSTAND WOOOOPP so kiss my butt :)
rite now, rite at this moment, riightt here, riighttt nowww, i'm looking at you and my heart love the vieewww ♫♪ im in tech, exam to be exact. but why am i on blogger? becoz i finished a lil bit earlier than everyone else :) everyone else is still doin the exam but iimmm freeeeeeeee. technology i love ya!

you know wattttt, i need a new blackberry coz my bb is getting old & slowwww. i REALLY want blackberry tour (L)(L)(L)(L) my dream my huney my love ah ah ah.

OMG GUESS WAT! ivana's blackberry, which has been 'stolen' for about 3 weeks, IS NOW FOUND! by her sister :) her sister apparently knew who stole it and she sent a threatning text message and the stealer read it and got scaredddd aanndd gave it back to ivana's sister :) then her sister gave it to her and ya know the endingg..HAPPY ENDINGG.

i'm feeling pretty dang good rite now. idk whyyyy. oh by the way im over that dude :):):) im so happehhhh.

I MISS YOU ALFIES GIRLS & BOYS!

xx d.

stupid over-reacter. errrrrrr.

i hate me. i just seem to over react all the time.

today i found out that the guy i reaaaaally care about (i dont like using the term "really like" or evenmore "love" rite now) likes someone else. maybe i've been acting like i dont have a single drop of feelings for him, but i actually still care about him so effing much. i admit that i'm very sad, and devastated. but i guess you cant force someone to like you. and you cant tell anyone who to like. so now, i can do nothing but to build a bridge and get over it. easier said than done, even monkeys who dont hav brains know that.

i've been thinking; this mite sound so emo and low self esteem or watever, but in all of my teenage life, i've had no luck wen it comes to guys. like, NONE, NOTHING, ZERO, EL ZIPPOWW. the guys that i like or have liked never seemed to like me at all.

ok, thats okay. i still have my friends. i still have my alfies girls and boys. guys come and go but friends are for ever, rite?

xx d.
i just wish i know who my real friends are...

omg i'm so mean =(

ok, reading the blog below this omg i feel so mean!!! =(

im not sposed to say that about someone, im not sposed to say that about ANYONE! err deevs why do you have to be so meaan =(

i dont hate reinhart, i was just really really extremely annoyed at him. still am. but i dont hate him. i dont hate anyone.

no matter how annoying he was being, it was inapropriate of me to write a blog post like that. IM SORRYYY. but then again, IM STILL SO ANNOYED AT YOU REINHART! so dont take this as an acception to ur apologises.

anyways, i gota get back to doing the drama essay. i think its useless, why the fk do i hav to write a 500-word essay about JULIET? shes not my idol, i dont even know her. shes not even real. so why why? i guess skool is a drag.

goodbye.

xx d

i'm losing my fluency of english

the title says it all.

if i dont come back to canberra anytime soon, i'm gonna lose my fluency of english. and i dont want that, coz then i'd be no fluent in neither english or indonesian.

anyways, i might start writing my blogs in bahasa indonesia pretty soon. i dont know why, i guess i just want to adapt ya know? well not that anyone reads any of my posts but anyways..

OK SO NOW IM IN TECHNO AND IM SOO ANGRYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
I HATE REINHARTTTTTTTT HES SO MEAN ='(
I HATE REINHART
I HATE REINHART
REINHART = GO DIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

ERRRRRR I HATE YOU YOU'RE THE MEANEST PERSON I KNOWWWWWWWW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SHOO.SHOO.SHOO.SHOO.SHOO.SHOO.GOAWAY.IHATEYOU.DIGAHOLE.ANDDIE.THENSEEGOD.TELLHIMILOVEHIM.ANDTELLHIM"IWASMEANTODEEVASOPUTMEINHELL"

REINHART = PUSSY

blogspot, i have no one else but you.

today was fun, and so was yesterday.

yesterday felt like a frikishly looooong day. finished skool at 12, then me ivana zitni danto astari and odi caught the busway to pim, then took a cab to danto's house and stayed there for a while, then danto ivana & astari walked to pim whilst zitni & i got a ride from odi to pim. sounds unfair but zitni & i were fastingg :p. we got to pim, then took a cab to sencyy :DD

long, tiring, yet funnn XD

today i saw bandslam with my cousin. it wasn't as bad as i thought itd be. it was actually pretty good :] loved the soundtracks; im so getting the cd wen it comes out.

got home half an hour ago, and went straight to my laptop to download the songs from bandslam XD

im tired.

"i am no prince, i am no saint, i am not anyone's wildest dream. but i will stand behind and be someone to fall back on." :) :)

xx, d.

EARTHQUAKE!

ok, so this happened a couple of days ago.

earthquake struck Jakarta. Well, it didnt actually strike jakarta, it struck this city called tasikmalaya but got to jakarta & bali & other cities around it coz apparently it was quite a powerful earthquake.

anyways, naufal zitni & I were on the 6th floor, talking. zitni was sitting then naufal and I came. we were just talking normally when suddenly zitni stood up and said "OMG, did you feel that? dude can u feel this!" and I was like "...no" and naufal was like "its shaking, its probably just ghostt" and Zitni and I looked at naufal funny ~_~ and suddenly i felt soo dizzy and evrything was like shaking and zitni was like "DUDE, EARTHQUAKE!" and we (along with the other binusians) raaaan downstairs and we were all freaked out and ther were so many ppl i slipped whilst going downstairss -__-"

unfortunately, it happened at the end of the day. so no, we didnt miss out on skool =(
but yea it was so scary.

and now i (well actually i got the idea from my friend's twitter, so credit goes to him yeay) found out the 3 main things people care about the most wen the earth is quaking (?):
1. twitter
2. safety
3. other things they think might be important.

you know it was kinda funny coz as soon as the earthquake happened, EVERYONE like literally EVERYONE got their blackberries out and started tweeting. amazing how people still managed to tweet whilst the teachers were panicking as if it was the end of the world.

i guess it was kinda kool coz it was the first time that i've ever felt an earthquake. :DD

I MISS CANBERRAAA.

skool is a drag, as wat rosy would say

so, i'm in the library right now with ika & rosy, and the rest of our bahasa class. we were to research about a desease and write stuff about it. we're all finished and now we are bored shitless.

ika & rosy are looking at ketawa.com, its like a indonesian website with funny pics, txt msgs, jokes, and yea. so im just writing this blog becoz ........... i havnt posted anything in 4evaaaahh!!!!!

hmm.so. theres this guy i like. but he doesnt like me ;( but thats okay, ill get over him soon...hopefully. .............................. YOU KNOW ITS NOT THAT EASY TO GET OVER SOMEONE YOU REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY LIKE!!! :(:(:(:(

im just gonna cheer myself up.

im hungry.

and thirsty too.

i dont even know wat in d hole im writing.....

...well techinally im typing.

i feel like sour sally..maybe i should get one after skool. but no i cant coz mum would kill meeeeeee!

im gonna go. i love ika & rosy :]
xx

It's unbelievably unbelievable.

once upon a time, kadee michelle hollis a.k.a my sister from another mister said to me, "dude, are you crazy? you can't be inlove at this age. that's bullshit. it's impossible."

since then, i started to think about what she said. and i kinda agreed, well i agreed with all my heart. but you know what, i now disagree, anything is possible.

what i'm feeling right now is an odd feeling. i can't quite explain it, i'm not even sure if this is a good or bad feeling. sometimes i like it, sometimes i HATE it. it makes me laugh, smile, it gives me butterflies, it even makes me want to cry at times. but then i figured out what this is.. i cant say the word becoz i feel really awkward saying it but it's a 4-letterd word, very strong word but some people seems to throw it around like it means nothing. starts with an L and ends with an OVE, im sure u'd be able to figure it out urself wat that word is.

hmmm...

xx d.

wish i had a time machine..

seriously, i've never thought that it was this hard to settle in in your own country.

i've been here for like one and a half months, almost 2 months, but it feels like i've been here for like ever! and it seems like evrythings still all over the place. well, apart from skool, i think im all settled in that part right there.

i cant believe im saying this, but im going to. i think that jakarta is amazing. indonesia is amazing. i love living here. its just so kool. im sure once evrything is all settled, im gonna love it here, i probs wouldnt want to leave ever again. OMG I SAID IT.

even tho jakarta is incredibly hot, humid, poluted (its BADLYBADLY poluted that evry morning wen i look out of the window, i can barely see anything, well i can see a couple of tall buildings nearby, since i live in an apartment, but then the rest are covered in smoke. it looks like fog, but trust me it aint fog coz its rlly hott :p), traffic jams everywhere like literally EVERYWHERE, and wat id say 'dangerous', jakarta is hektic, i love it. LOVE it. weird ehh? :p

as much as i love it here, i still miss canberra very very much. especially deakin. gosh i miss that skool so much =( well i miss the people in it. i dont know why, im probs just over reacting, but i feel that the deakin friends who I LOVE OH SO VERY MUCH WITH ALL MY HEART are starting to forget about me ='[ but i guess they need to move on, we ALL need to move on with our lives. i mean, if you just stay in one spot and neverr move forward, when are you ever gonna achieve wat you need/want to achieve?

but PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE DEAKINERS, DONT FORGET ABOUT ME. COZ I WONT EVER FORGET ABOUT ALL OF YOU'S, LIKE LITERALLY EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU'S. I LOVE YOUS SOOOOOOO FUGGIN MUCHH. IF I HAD A PRIVATE JET I WOULD COME DOWN THERE EVRY SINGLE DAY OF MY LIFE.

anyways, i think this blog is long enough. and besides, im not even sure that anyone would read it =\ haha.

tc,

xx d

hows it goin?

omg haha. reading the blog below this; gosh wasnt i depressed? lols XD

havnt been posting anithing in forever!

some things thats been happenin;

it was my bday on july the 28th, caroline & I went to sushi groove and met some pretty hektic people XD

i'm getting used to jakarta's weather, infact ive decided that I LOVE IT! coz its never cold :DD

I GOT INTO A NEW SKOOL! its called Binus international skool. a couple of tests needed to be done, and luckly i passed them both (:

my first impression of binus was, "dude, is this a school or an office building?" im tellin ya, its HUMONGOUS! its 9 floor tall & its a friggin office building. but i guess its kinda kool...until i found out wat time skool starts & finishes :p it starts at 7.30in the morning, and finishes at 3pm. in canberra skool starts at 9am finishes at 3.15pm. now wen i think back, i thought, wasnt i lucky to live in canberra?

my first day at binus was on the 4th of august, it was a tuesday to be exact. i woke up at 5.30am, my VERY FIRST TIME EVER, EVER IN MY LIFE that i wake up at that time for skool :p . and you know wat, binus is really not bad. its actually really good. the ppl in it are so nice to me :) but i hav to wear uniforms =(

so now, i've been in binus for 4 days, and so far, im lovin it!

:)

xx d.

have you ever felt like this?

have you ever felt like no one cares about you?
have you ever felt like you have no friends & no one to trust?
have you ever felt like everything is so hard, so tough & life is no longer worth living?

I have.

and you know wat, it doesnt feel good to feel this way. it feels like im lost in the middle of nowhere, on the edge of breaking down but no one's there to save me. everything feels so hard when it comes to 'me'.
ok im just gonna write the lyrics of 'Welcome To My Life by Simple Plan' coz i can sooo relate to that song right now.

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong,
and no one understands you?

Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud,
and no one hears you screaming?

Now you don't know what it's like,
with nothing feels alright,
you don't know what it's like
to be like me

To be hurt, to feel lost, to be left out in the dark
To be kicked, when you're down, to feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down, but no one's there to save you
now you don't know what it's like,
welcome to my life

im tired, sad & feeling pretty damned screwed.
so im gonna stop this blog.
fml & gnite.

Fanta Blueberry

I Love It

it's officially my fav soft drink in the whole wide world (:

Wednesday, 24th of June 2009

Fucking saddest day of my life.

i know it was abit over 2 weeks ago, but to be honest, im just not over it yet. (and i havnt been blogging since then)

my last day at deakin;

i couldnt believe it was over. done. zipowww. i cried so much that my eyes were like swollen the next day. i love you guys so much, deakinn girls & guys. you guys mean the world to me, and im not joking. if i was old enough to propose, i'd propose each one of you-including the girls- and i'd do watever it takes to keep you guys happy. i just love you's so much ='(

this is gonna sound so corny but watever, it's how i feel.

you guys are the best things thatd ever happened to me. all of my life i've been moving to one city to another, but wen i moved to australia, evrything seemed so special (not in a retarded way of course) and unforgettable. each moment was always something to remember, none of them werent. especially high skool. alfred deakin high skool. yes that skool is weird, but that's wat makes it such an incredible skool. i found all of these retards that i love so much, they're veryy...veryvery awesome. (sorry i couldnt find a better word, well maybe its becoz its impossible to word how awesome they are). and now its all over for me =( the fun, the excitement, the happiness... aaahhh no =(

i hope i will never ever ever loose you guys, ever, over anything. i deffs wont forget all of you's, wat about you guys? keep in contact please. if you dont have my indo number, go to my facebook notes, i put it there. and text me, call me, visit me, give me a lil giggle so then i know you're doing good.

dont ever let me out of you's lives, coz im keeping all of you's in mine.

i love you. you're all fucking awesome, and these are just some. <3

sometimes, farewell is the best time you'll ever have.

LAST NIGHT WAS FUCKING EPIC!

i swear it was by far the best night i've had in a looong time, possibly ever.

well, i went to bil&dran's for a sleepover, i came at like 6. wen i got off the car, in bil&dran's driveway, i saw this like lil human creature who i thought was georgie, peeked thru the window. so i was like ha georgii :p so then i went up the stairs to ding dong the doorbell, but then georgie & billie were downstairs, and i could see them thru the clear door thing. and so then i was like HEY GUYS! and bil was like OH DEEVA come thru here! quick! and so i was like okayy.

and then we were just downstairs for a while, and i was like wheres drana? and bil was like oh she's upstairs and i was like ohhkk. and all those times, i was wondering why bil was dressed so nicely and i was in my uggies, & dodgy jacket.

so then bil was like lets go upstairs and i was lik okayyy. and we went up the stairs and i saw drana! she was opening the fridge :p and she was lik HEYY DEEVAA!! and i was like heyy dranaa! and i was about to ask her why she was dressed so nicely until suddenly..........

SURPRISEEE!!!!!! from behind the couch. and everyone was ther; kyle, lauren, tay, kadee, ellen, ochre, abby, kashia, robert, jaimee, banna, karl, luke, aiden, adam, and maggie. molly & kim were there too but they came late, but that's okay, THEY WERE THERE!

immediately, i jumped and screamed at the top of my lungs, and started crying... (i know im lameee shut up) and evryone went to hug me and aw i felt so spesh :">

the night went great, we had pizza for dinner, as well as other junks, but ther were carrots & cucumbers with dips (Y) they were the only healthy things there :p

party finished at 8.30....but not for me and the other 9 girls. we all stayed over night and WOAH, that was one hectick night! we stayed up til like 3, but kim & banna pretty much stayed up til like 6 in the morning :p

omg. i can not explain how much i appriciate this. i love you guys so much, it's really hard to explain in words. thank you, heaps and heaps, you guys have no idea how lucky i am. i love you, i love you, i love you guys so so so so sos os os os os so sossooooo much, its crazy! don't even ask how much im gonna miss you guys, it's unexplainable.

I LOVE YOU ALL!! SOO FRIGGIN MUCH!!

xx d.

last weekend.

this is like my last weekend in australia.

i went to the movies with kyle today :D we saw land of the lost IT WAS FKN AWESOME! soo funny haha. you guys have to see it.

and tonite, im coming over to bil's and dranas for a sleepover. we're gonna do like eeevvrrryyytthiiinngggg like facial and evrything it's gonna be a hoottt!!! XD can't wait.

i think my mum is like pissed at me coz i havnt been helpin her packing & cleaningg.... ahh i feel bad but ive got so much to do!!! o well i'll still have time to pack my stuff, like monday & tuesday nite. yupp all organised (Y)

AHHHHHH THIS WEEKEND IS GONNA BE THE BEST WEEKEND EVER!

goodbye

i hate goodbyes =[

today was my last ever piano lesson with paul. the lesson started off by me playing "bubbly" for his daughter (: she was the cutest plum everr!!! ahaha XD and then, he was like, "i've got a little gift for you" and i was lik omgsh no no and he was like yess, then he gave me 2 books, one is this book about music bussiness, and the other one is about like "how to get from where you are to where you want to be" book. and he was like "you're a very special student of mine" and he said something else but i cant really remember haha.

at the end of the lesson, i swear i was about to cry. but i didnt end up crying coz i thought that it mite get really awkward if i started crying. hahahaha. omggg i hate lasts =( but i guess evrything has its last.

paul, if ur reading this (which i doubt that you will lol), you've been a really great piano teacher. your actually like the best piano teacher that i've ever had in my whole piano-playing life. and i hate saying goodbye to you becoz it'll be really hard to find another extremely awesome piano teacher like you!!!! aahhhh. but im deffs gonna keep in touch with my whole music career, okayy???!!! ahahahha.

anywaysss... gtg bye lol.

xx d.

have a break, have a bloggy.

omg. how long has it been? like 2 weeks?

anyways, i'm slowly feeling a bit organised again. coz i just finished my science assignment WOOOOOT. & now i've only got english speech to do. cmon deeva you can do it :D

its the 13th of june! happy birthday m-k&ash olsen (: you guys are my icon!

canberra's been soo fkn cold. but im KIND OF getting used to it. actually, i think it as "be strong, i'll be out of here in 13 days!"

HOOLLYYY CRAP!

13 DAYS!

all of the sudden, i dont know if im sad or happy. i'm just...blank about it. =|

let's not talk about it.

tonight i'm staying over at dran&bil's. this shall be fun :D spending my 2nd last weekend with my beloved best friends :)

ok i'm gonna get back to my assignments.

xx. d

updates.

havent posted anything for so long.

i actuallyy cant be fuked, but since i havnt been here for a while, i thought id post something.

FIRSTLY; PINCH & PUNCH ON THE FIRST DAY OF THE MONTH! ha.

secondly; its been a week since my last post (well, my last proper post) and i'm still sick. but not that bad. my nose is cleared up, but now i cant stop coughing. its bloody anoyying! and my throat hurts, but my nose isnt blocked anymore soo its better.

i got myself a fiineee man ;) he's a very nice guy, i'm glad this is happening and that's all i can say. :)

i'm goin to brisbane tomorrow. altho im only staying ther for one night, that's better than nothing. hopefully, the weather would be better up there. its horrible in canberra, its so cold. but its understandable since today was the first day of winter. i hate winter, hate hate hate it!

omgsh. today was the mtv move awards thing. haha i fkn loved it! so funny. loved it loved it loved it. can't wait til next year's.

anyways, im so tired. im gonna go.

pumped for brisbane! 25 days til indo! AAAAAAA!

waaaat?

A
- Available: oh yess ;) only to this guy that i like tho XD
- Age: 13 yrs old 
- Annoyance: flies & people who are up them selves.
- Animal: i want a puppy

B
- Beer: lauren's dad make them XD
- Birthday: july the 28th
- Best feeling in the world: love
- Best weather: sunny with a lil tiny bit of clouds, warm, not dry but not humid.
- Been on stage?: is nerve breaking =P
- Believe in Magic: hmm.... idk!
- Believe in God: yes
- Believe in Santa: no
- Bus: i catch the 493 after skool...?

C
- Candy: rainbow liquorish
- Colour: green..&turqoise 
- Chocolate/Vanilla: choco all d way
- Chinese/Mexican: both XD
- Cousins: gotta love em :)

D
- Day or Night: day
- Dance in the rain?: why not?

E
- Eggs: yum with beef bacon
- Eyes: blue eyes are hotttttt!
- Everyone's got: feelings.
- Ever failed a class?: no THANK GOD.

F
- Full name: Devaresti Wismartia
- Fav food: nando's

G
- Greatest Fear: losing 'the people'
- Goal: live in L.A, be a successful singer/musician, then get into hollywood XD
- Gum: blueberry extra
- Get along with your parents?: yeah love em :)
- Good luck charm: dont have any.


H
- Hair Color: black brownish
- Height: idk, 156cm?
- Happy: when school is fully over.
- Holiday: the bahamas :)

I
- Ice Cream: cotton candy
- Instrument: voice, piano, flute, abit of violin.


J
- Jewellery: earings & 'forever' necklace
- Job: hollywood star.

K
- Kids: are cute when they're quiet.
- Kickboxing or karate: neither
- Keep a journal?: online blog.

L
- Longest Car Ride: bus ride to the gold coast, 18 friggin hours!
- Love: everyone deserves it :)

M
- Milk flavor: depends wat mood.
- Motion sickness?: naah
- Maccas or Burgerking?: breakkie at maccas! :D

N
- Number of Siblings: 1
- Number of Piercings: 2
- Number: 000 , call me! =P

O
- Old friends: i miss them so much =(
- Obedient : means..?

P
- Perfect Pizza: chicken with bbq sauce & puffed pastry crusts. yum.
- Pepsi/Coke: coke

Q
- Quail: when you fall into a hole...?

R
- Reason to cry: goodbyes.
- Reality TV: the hills?
- Radio Station: 104.7
- Roll your tongue in a circle?: is something that i wouldnt do in public :p
- Ring size: ah, i dnt like rings, none of them fit me :(

S
- Song: writing one is the best way to express ur feeling. (haha im so corny :p)
- Shoe size: 38
- Salad Dressing: idk. any
- Skipped School: nah...not yet :p haha jk
- Slept outside: in a tent at ellen's :)
- Skinny dipped?: not yet
- Sing well?: that's wat ive heard =P
- In the shower?: i wash myself.
- Swear?: wen im agro
- Strawberries/Blueberries: strawberries. but blueberry gum

T
- Time for bed: is the worst time when you have cold.
- Thunderstorms?: striked the black transact thing this one time =P

U
- Unpredictable: hate wen someone is one, but i love being one.

V
- Vacation spot: bahamas

W
- Weakness: jealousy
- Which one of your friends acts the most like you: none. :)
- Which friend makes you laugh the most: BIANCA&ADRIANA SMITH
- Worst Feeling: unloved
- Wanted to be a model?: once, not anymore tho
- Worst Weather?: triple W; wet, windy, winter. ewww.

X
- X-Rays: is it painful?
- Ex's: fortunately, i'm friends with them :)

Y
- Year it is now: 2009
- Yellow: bananas in pyjamas

Z
- Zoo animal: sheep? XD

LAST PERSON WHO…
1. Slept in a bed beside you?: my auntie
2. You went to the mall with?: b&d
3. You went to dinner with?: umm. forgot
4. You talked to on the phone?: billie
5. Made you laugh?: wat toby said. "yeah. but most guys have a bit of dickheadness in them and that shows ***'s lol."
6. Hugged you?: billie
7. Said they loved you?: mum
8. Held your hand?: uhh idk
9. Spoke with?: mum
10. You cried over?: ....

sick. no, literally.

argh. i hate colds. i hate cold weather. i hate the colds colds. I JUST HATE COLDS!!!!!! HAESIOTRHAOEMGIPAEWGKJPP]]

i woke up from my little nap, i couldnt fuking breath. both of my nose were blocked, AND THEY STILL ARE. fukkk. i can't stop blowing my nose and im pretty sure soon my nose would blow off its fukin way of my face. and my throat, GRRR, i feel like taking it out of my neck, clean it and put it back in. my head aches bad, but i still manage to post a new blog coz i'm kool like that B-] (i hate it how even wen im sick, i still think im the funniest kid alive, wen really im the lamest creature ever made by .. watever)

i don't even know how i got this cold. i think its coz i shared a drink with my fellow friend amelia. i didn't know that she had the cold until she told me AFTER she took a sip of my drink. haha. but it could be from anitin,, it could be from people at skool sneezing & coughing in my face.. it could be from some randoms in civic that dropped their boogerd tissue and i stepped on it and the bacterias worked their way up to my nose or mouth or watever, it could be from anitin.

it's 11.17pm and i'm not sleepy coz i havnt took my flu tablets yet :p but i will as soon as i finished this.

ZOMG - IT'S 33 DAYS TIL INDO!

hope i get better. pls, hope with me. haha im so stupid.

sneezes & coughs,

-d.

dear blogspot..

i hate it how things change so much in so little time. i hate it how cold canberra is getting. i hate it how if i can't find any toilets i have to hold the temptation of peeing in....(err, deevs?)

things change soo quickly. one day you would be all happy & you'd be having the best time of your life, but the nxt thing you know, you're in this mess & youre all fukked up and unhappy.

yeah, that's what happened to me.

the blog underneath this one..u see? it's all happy & exciting & shiiz. but guess wat? on the very next day, everything completely changed. i was all......unhappy. and i wasnt myself. i was lost for a bit. i just wasnt me, AT ALL. i wasnt enjoying my time being here, i thought being here was the worst time everr wen really it is the best, craziest time that i've had (so far) in my whole entire 13&ahalf years of life. it's crazy. i hate having those times. and the worst part is, I'VE GOT THE COLD. i absoulutly hate it, but then again, who doesnt?

it's 35 days until i leave this land of aboriginals for my homecountry, Indonesia. im really really really excited! yet really really really sad. although i have some friends ther & hopefully will find some more, i don't want to loose any of the frendships that i've made here. sometimes, everything seems to go soooo friggin fast and then, before you've even realised, BAAAMM! you have to leave. sometimes, i wish that i never came here. i know rite, crazy & stupid, but if i never came here & met all those wonderful people that i've met, it wouldn't be hard for me to leave. it would be just as easy as abc,123,doremi, watever. but thenn, if i never came here & met all those people, AHHH! i dont even want to think about it! its HORRIBLE! they're the bestestest people ever, and my life would suck without themm.

but wait, why am i even bragging about this? 35 days is a hella long time away. ill talk about it some more, wen it's a day before my actual flight. :p

aaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. i want to write so much more. i dont even know if anyone's goin to read this blog. its too damn long, well not yet. but i need to get some stuff out of my system. i know that nothing online is ever personal, but i cant be botherd to get a diary with a padlock or watever. and besides, nobodys even goin to read this..rite? wait,, this isnt even personal omg wtf ha lol im so stupid ARGH NO UR STUPID no deeva youre so stupid OMGSH OK SHUT UP.

some people just happen to have higher selfishness in themselves than others, or in other word, the "ego-maniacs". i hate those kinds of people, they drive me nuts. why cant they just....arrgghh sorry it makes me angry even thinking of thinking about it! i also hate, the "plastics". they think evrybody loves them wen really, evrybody HATES their absoulute bits & pieces. but then again, if we all have the same attittude, likes, dislikes, interests & such, this world would be such a dull place to have a life in. so i kind of thank the God for all those selfish, selfstruck people.....i think.

its 11.39pm. im talking to zenza on msn (AWW I MISS YOU SO MUCH BABYY) and she's asking me about wat to do about her windows live messenger, coz its broken or somtin like that.

i need caroline. its nothing urgent, i just miss her and want to talk to her XD love her to bits.

im gonna go. if this blog gets any longer, anyone who reads this would probably die from lack of seeing blank space on the computer.

loviieess.

-d. 

plain, black blog.

YAAWWW! I FEEL GOOD. PANANANANANANAPP. I KNEW THAT I WOULD. PANANANANANANAPP. I FEEEEL NICE. PANANANANANANAPP. LIKE SUGAR AND SPICE. PANANANANANANAPP. XD

ahh. today was a good day. i dont know why. maybe its cozz, ther was alot of laughterr & suchh. sooo yeasshh.

omgsh. im so nervous. well, more likee...pumped nervous. limelite audition is on thursday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! JOWEIJFPQOWPEO123IRPOFP[DOV[G[[[ 

okay im good. but yeh im soooooooo pumped but nervous!!! well its like 3 days away, still hav plenty of time to practice :)

anyways, a lesson i learned from today ;; if you're pretty good friends with someone, and you're sitting next to them in a class, and you're being silly & all loud and shiiz, and suddenly you realise that you like them, DONT TELL THEM THAT YOU LIKE THEM. DONT EVEN GIVE HINTS. INFACT DONT EVEN THINK OF DOIN IT COZ ULL MAKE EVRYTHING AWKWARD AND SHIT!

and i would know that coz.... well.... lets say ive been there,done that :p

loviieesss.

-d.

Saturday arvo

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDYYY!!! hope you have a great day. i miss you loads. xx

saturday.. always a good day coz it's the weekend!! WOOOOT.

i need to do my art assignment, it's due next week. but i guess i can give it anytime next week so i have til thursday. but i really gotta get organised!

ohhh. and for those of you who just got out of a relationship & is broken hearted, i recommend you to have your feelings out & not have it in. i guarantee 110% it'll make you feel so much better. Listen to this song;; Breakeven by The Script. I think it's the greatest cure for broken heart. listen to the lyrics, the more you can relate to it, the more you can cry & have your lil sad feeling out. :)

i love the lyrics to it. my fave are the part where it goes like this;;

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing.....coz when a heart break no it don't breakeven

and the chorus is the best;; What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you, and what am I suppposed to say when I'm choked up that you're all ok. I'm falling to pieces, I'm falling to pieces...

Good song. good song. XD

It's good to feel good. So don't be sad coz it's over, be happy coz it happened. :)

loviieess.

-d.

hello again XD

argghh, fuukk. i uploaded the wrong pic and don't know how to get rid of it. ignore it pls. ma bad :p

HOAAAAHH!! i havnt filled thiss bloggie in forever! (well, since saturday, but dude that's like 5 days ago!) it feels like a part of me is missing...> dramatic mode : ON. :p

anywayss, i promised you that i'd put one of the skillage photos done by mas Hendra up in here. well here it is! we took so much more, but this is by far my fave. (:

>>> HOW COOL!! <<<

hmmm. for the past 5 days, i have been living my life (darr) and i've learnt a couple of things;; 1st, SMOKING SHISHA* IS 100x WORST THAN SMOKING NORMAL CIGARS! and 2nd, i know who my true friends are. i know who i would protect from giant catterpilers, and who i wouldnt care about even if they get sucked into a blackhole. *for those of you who don't know what shisha is, i'll post a blog on it later on.

ahh, i've got soo much to sayy. i jst can't remember any of it coz i'm too paranoid about the science test tomorrow. i havnt been payin attention to any of wat Mr. Kores has been saying in class. OHHH DEAARRR IM SOOO DEAD. but i took notes today, so hopefully it'll help me out..even the littlest bit. GOD, PLEASE HELP ME. D:

i can remember some of the thiingss that i was gonna write..

i wanted to give a shoutout to my beautiful Bianca&Adriana Smith ;; i love you guys so much. thank you for listening to all of my evil plans & bitchiness. you guys are the only people who would put up with my crap & live with it, not try to change who i am, and you guys never ditch me, no matter how much evryone else hate my guts, you always walk in whenever the world walks out on me. thank you, oh so very much. <3

anyways, i gotta study for my science test now. ( EEEEEEP =S )

wish me a luck peeps!

loviieess.

-d.

Mother's day

First of all, Happy Mother's Day ya'll! i love you mummy'x like the flowers, digital photo frame & the card? XD .. ;; credit goes to my brother. xx thanks bro.

love your mum, you put the grey on her hair :p

yesterday was so much fun. We (me, housemate mas hendra, and auntie) went around ANU and took some fully skilled photos! they were soo kool, i havnt got them on the computer yet, but i promise i'll upload a couple here to show you guys how FULLY AWESOME MAS HENDRA'S PHOTOGRAPHIC SKILL IS!! yesss. :D

today i got up at 9am =O this is like the earliest ive ever gotten up on weekends :p i don't even no why i didnt sleep in, coz last nite i went to bed at like, 12.30am. sooo yeah =S

anyways, today i'm planning to go to woden and get some DVD's (ther r soo many good & cheap dvds rite now its insane!) and that clearasil pimple blocker pen. "You can't see it but i can feel a pimple coming through and i don't want him to see me like this!" - clearasil pimple blocker pen ad. :p . but i don't know if that's goin to happen . coz i'm feeling really lazy rite now.

SHIT!!!! I JST REMEMBER. LIKE A SECOND AGO ABOUT MY MATHS ASSIGNMENT!!! ITS DUE TUESDAY AND I HAVNT EVEN STARTED. I DON'T EVEN KNOW IF I HAVE THE ASSIGNMENT SHEET! OMG I AM SOO FRIED! (haha, i'm soo lame, "fried" XD)

ok so i'll have to call billie, that definitely has to happen today. ahh i hate beingg forgetful;; it ain't fun =P

i'll end this here. i'm gonna have a shower & laze even more.

loviieess.

-d.

CROSS COUNTRY IS OVER BABBYY!!

i'm addicted to Leave Out All The Rest by Linkin Park. i can definitely relate to the chorus;;

When my time comes, forget the wrong that I've done, help me leave behind some reasons to be missed. And don't resent me and when you're feeling empty, keep me in your memory. Leave out all the rest, leave out all the rest ...

anyways, today was siiik as XD coz i beat my time in cross country YAAAY. and today was the last day of cross country, EVEN MORE YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY. ahh. soo glad. then, after skool (as usual) bil drana and i went to woden and got boost (Y) and took pictures! (Y) but this time it was in colour. then we met lauren & lucy so we decided to take another picture with themm :D i no, siikk ass bruu XDXD but then bil & drana had to go, so they went and caught the bus while me lauren and lucy stayed chillin at woden :D i got new sweater top (Y) and Bend It Like Bechkam DVD!! dude it was $8.83 in big dabz so i was lik OMG IM SO GETTING IT XD i love that movie!

and in 7 mins, fergus is gonna come on msn and tell me who he likes XD bahaha this should be good :p i feel like a gossip queen XD ppsssshhhh..

tomorrow's gonna be sooo funn. i'm goin to the book store (BORDERS) in civic. MY FUKIN FAV STORE EVER!! and i'm gonna read magz & write songs lyrics while havin chai latte with extra vanilla, strong. XD my happy place (Y)

ok, i'm gonna go now as i don't have anymore to write (well, type). 

loviieess.

-d.

Walkathon

HOAAAAAH. walkathon was SOOO TIRING!!! yet very funn :)

the activities afterwards were alright, except for this passing balls over & under one. GAAAYY. check this pic out, its me & kashia (LOVE YOU) we were like so boredd while that activity was goiin so we took pictures :p

aaannndd this is me, lauren, and robert somwhere in the walkathonn, probss the 7 and a half k's mark, or somtin XD  i love you guys <3

aneeewayssss. didnt post anitin yesterday, too busy writing songs XD

OMG. i finished myy first ever original song yesterday! the lyrics are abit cheesy tho, hmmm.... o well .. :p

don't know wat else to write. besides, i suddenly cant be fuked to write anymore.

to entertain, here's some videos from the walkathon. enjoyy.

don't you hate it when this exact same person stabs you not only from the back, but also from the front, over and over again? yeah, i definitely fkn hate that. go home bitch, i've had enough of your shit. stop taking the only friends that i have away from me, you've got enough friends havent you? stop taking someone else's (which always happens to be me) and get your own dang friends! fukk.

the axis of awesome 4 chords.

the axis of awesome 4 chords;; brilliant. brilliant. brilliant!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qHBVnMf2t7w

you've got to watch it. it is the most fascinating, AWESOMEST thing anyone have ever done. check it out. :)

anyways, todayy was a great day. school was cool (FOR ONCE, GAWSH!) well except for the part when i accidently rest my hand on drana's spilled meat pie :p . and piano lesson was TERRIFIC. paul lectured me for half of the lesson, wich was really really good coz he told me all these stuff that ive never even thought of. and he showed me that "the axis of awesome 4 chords" vid. AAAAHHHHH. VERY VERY VERY HAPPY XD

im now INSPIRED. i know that i can write my own originals :) i know that i can do it YEAAAAH GO DEEVS! XD

 i also told him about my dreamm of goin to L.A and get into hollywood. he said,"you know wat, to be honest, i think you have a great greatt chance to get ther!" and i was lik OMGSH THANK YOU. i really really hope that dream will one day come true :)

at school, i did some video shooting (again). i dont know, i kinda like doin it now XD maybe its coz im leaviin and i just want videos to watch to bring back memories and stuff, ya knoww?

this is one of the videos that i shoot. sit back. relax. enjoy (:  (it is really not that amusing :p)

i love these people, they keep me alive <3

D.W[4]B.S;A.S;T.J;M.N ' x

loviieess.

-d.